Why can't anything be easy?????!!!!!!!!

I don't even know what to tell any of you right now. I was so sure that I was not pg since I started bleeding/spotting on Sunday and had cramps all weekend and on and off over the last 2 days. I did stop bleeding on Monday and had some shred of hope that maybe...just maybe...I am pg.

I went for my b/w today and I got a call that my test was positive. My HCG level is 16. They like to see a level of 75-100 right now for a viable pregnancy. I have to go back on Thursday and have another blood test. If it rises, they will continue to monitor the level. If it doesn't rise or drops, then I guess that's it for this cycle. I'm sure they will tell me to stop my Prometrium and estrogen patches and we will proceed with another IVF once I recover from this one.

I spoke with the nurse on Monday about my concerns before moving on to IVF#2. I am plagued with uterine polyps and I really would like to have a Hysteroscopy and a D&C if those blasted polyps are found. I know my RE will want to do a saline sonogram in her office and go from there. I have no confidence in the sonogram. I had one last year and she didn't see the polyps but they were there and blocking my left fallopian tube. We will probably have to meet with her in order for me to convince her to take me right to the OR and forget the dam sonogram. I know she won't want to do that. I also asked if there was a better bcp for me that will allow me to start my period a few days after the last active pill. It shouldn't take 10 days to start a period after taking the last pill. I would be on a new pack and never get a period if I was using them for bcp purposes.

So for now, I need all of your prayers and sticky vibes. Maybe one of the embryos is trying to hang on in there. I have no idea if this means I am officially pg and if it doesn't remain viable, did I miscarry? I've got lots of questions to ask on Thursday. This is all so confusing. I'm praying for a Christmas miracle right now. I am expecting the worst but hoping for the best. It's all we can do!