Update...

This is hell. My hcg level is 25. It went up 9 points only. They would have liked to see it double. I would have liked to see that happen too. I finally get my BFP and there is absolutely nothing to be happy about. I will never ever go through IF treatments this close to Christmas. I'm having a hard time getting things done. I don't know what to feel or what to do. I still don't know what to say.

I know there is nothing to do but take each day as it comes. I physically feel lousy. Psychologically, I'm not sure what I feel. I function ok at work but my mind drifts off. I think work is my salvation. It's comforting to help people with their problems when you don't know what to do about your own. I'm trying to expect the worst and hope for the best....just like my "Conquering Infertility" book says to do. I did POAS this morning and got ONE LINE as usual. I am a slave to the sticks. I need to go out and by more.