This morning I went for my baseline u/s and b/w. My u/s looked good. My estrogen level was 109. Too high once again. I just don't get it. I cried at work. I had to run to my office and pull myself together. They want me to stay on the Lupron and come back Monday for another blood test. Why? Is it really going to drop over 50 points by then? Let's be real. I can't help but think IVF is not for me. Maybe they just want to make some money off my insurance.
I know for sure I am NOT taking the same lousy bcp's again. I have so many questions. I am going to leave my cell phone number on Monday so I can talk to someone and not play phone tag. Should I be on a larger Lupron dose? Are my eggs dead? Is this a sign of poor quality eggs?
I don't know. This roller coaster rides sucks and I want to get off. One minute you're euphoric with hope and the next minute it's like someone stuck a knife in your heart.
Tonight I am going on the Internet to search for ways to lower one's estrogen level. I'm not sure there is anything one can do in the short term. I am trying to buy meat with no hormones added and I tried soy milk but yuck. My sister-in-law told me to try organic milk. I'm going to give it a whirl.
My stepdaughter Sam is here. I don't want to be a drag while she's here. I need to pull myself together and move on. We'll see what Monday brings.
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