Almost there....

AF is on the verge today! I still can't get over how excited I am over starting a period! I believe tomorrow will be officially Day 1. I will start my pack of bcp's and make the call to the IVF nurses to report day1. Let the games begin!

Monday we met with the RE. It was a quick appointment. We had a few questions. Chris is kind of leery about freezing the embryos. He agrees to freeze if we have any extra.There's no data stating that there are more birth defects from frozen embryo transfers(FET) as compared to fresh ones. My age is the biggest factor and there's not much we can do about that. We have about 6 consent forms to sign and return the next time I'm in the office for an u/s. The RE said to me, "make me proud". I should have told her to "MAKE ME PREGNANT". Then I'll make you proud. I'm so anal about everything. I follow directions to a T. I truly am the perfect patient. I swear whatever happens with the meds is not my fault.

While at the office, the nursing assistant handed me a paper bag. I looked in and saw there were 3 boxes of Follistim!!! This is the most expensive drug on my list!!! I was so happy so see this. I knew they were going to help us with the first cycle. I hung on to that bag and drove it directly home to put it in the fridge. She then told me the nurse said they had more meds for us for the first cycle as well. I would be happy with what we got. That takes off so much financial stress this month.

I don't want to put all my eggs in a basket(no pun intended) with this first IVF cycle but it's so hard not to. They told us only about 50% get pg on the first try. It doesn't seem possible that it can fail. Yet I have seen a few on the RESOLVE bulletin board. It's so sad. I know there's always adoption and we already know what's that like. It's not an easy road to navigate either and a part of me doesn't want to have to go back down it. Although once we were approved and waiting for a match, it was like being pg. Everything costs so much damn money.

On that note, I'm off to bed so I can get up and go to work tomorrow. Gotta go make some money to pay our copays!