FINALLY!!!!!!!!

Ok...so we did IVF#4 under the radar. I didn't post about it and decided to not think about it. With the help of acupuncture, I did just that. And.....WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We got 10 eggs this cycle, 6 being mature. Only 2 fertilized. Our worst fert ever. Luckily, both embryo's were top grade A's, an 8-cell and a 10-cell. We did a 3 day transfer and the wait began. I also used acupuncture this time and I truly believe it helped a lot. I was very relaxed this cycle and didn't obsess over the medications, testing, etc.

I did some early POAS to see when the trigger shot was out of my system. It took about a week after transfer to finally see one line only on the sticks. About 5 days before my b/w I POAS when I got home from work and it was negative. The next morning, I did another and couldn't believe I was seeing a faint 2nd line. By the time I was ready to leave for work, I was positive I was seeing 2 lines!!!! I was home alone as Chris was away for work. I repeated a test that night and the line was darker so I was sure I was pg!

My first beta came back at 92. I went for a repeat 2 days later and it doubled to 188. I cannot tell you how stressful it was waiting between these blood tests! This has been the worst wait EVER and we have done a lot of waiting over the years! I wasn't feeling great which turns out to be normal from the enlarged ovaries and fluid in the belly from the IVF meds. The next beta was 357 which wasn't quite a double and caused a lot of stress till a repeat 4 days later came back at 1802!

I had my first U/S scheduled for 11/13. On 11/7, I saw bright red blood and a clot and literally freaked out. My knees were weak. I was so sure it was over. I went to work and waited for my RE to call. They called right when they got in to the office at 9am and told me to come for an u/s. They said they would be able to tell if I was having a miscarriage. I lost it. My friend at work had to take me on the shuttle to the RE's office for my scan. Thankfully, I saw the pregnancy sac and the yolk sac forming. I had very little bleeding the rest of the day and tried to stay hopeful. They said it looked promising but they couldn't say for sure it wasn't the beginning of the end.

On 11/12, I'm heading into work and feel this gush. WARNING, this is going to be TMI. I kept feeling gushes and realized as I was on the shuttle bus to work that it felt like I had AF. Sure enough, by the time I get to ladies room, I've got bright red blood and huge clots everywhere, down my legs, into my shoes! My heart sank. I knew it was over. I was numb. I got back to my office and broke down. My coworkers went into action. I managed to call the RE and Chris and headed over to the office. I was relieved when Chris came flying into the exam room before they came to do the u/s.

The nurse and the U/S tech came in and thought it was over too when they saw my legs. They had dried blood all the way down them. I still didn't realize this. The probe went in and the tech stopped and said, "Becky...you are still pg, the sac is still there." Chris is holding my hand and I'm hanging on for dear life to him. She magnifies the sac and there 's this little white blob and it's beating! It has a heartbeat! I was stunned. Chris was crying. It was amazing and crazy at the same time! I asked where all this blood came from and they said they had no idea but my uterus had no more in it. It's not uncommon for IVF patient's to have some bleeding but this was more than "some bleeding". We left there shellshocked. I went home to collapse in the recliner. I had some cramps and light bleeding all day. I stayed home the next day because I was expecting to see more blood but very little happened and I actually felt good the next day.

I've seen some light bleeding since and had some light cramps but nothing to panic over. I got nervous this week because my symptoms had suddenly stopped on Tuesday. My boobs don't hurt as much, haven't felt the bloating like I was. I went for my 2nd U/S on Wed. 11/19 and this time I could see the white blob before she magnified the U/S! And I got to see the heartbeat again! What sweet relief! Chris is in San Fran till next Wednesday so I scanned the pic above and sent it to him.

I'm feeling more positive now that I've seen the hb twice. I know it's early and something dreadful could happen but I'm trying to remain positive right now and BELIEVE this will happen and bring us a happy ending.

Thank you to all who have supported us and prayed for us. Please send some happy, positive, growing thoughts to our little one!