The new plan made me cry....

I still haven't recieved my letter so I called the RE's office. After a round of phone tag, one of the IVF nurses paged me at work so we could talk "live". My RE wants me to lose 10-20lbs before the next cycle. I'm not shocked at the suggestion. I would love nothing more than to lose weight myself. The nurse made it clear that my RE knows how hard it is to lose weight with PCOS and Insulin Resistance. I had to fight back tears while I was on the phone. I saved the tears until I got home. They gave me the number to a weight loss program at Mercy Hospital but it's not covered by my insurance and the Optifast program(drinking shakes only for quick weight loss) costs about $1800. I've decided to try on my own. I haven't been exercising and I could certainly eat better. I am going to give myself till the end of April and if I'm not losing enough, I will consider calling the Mercy people.

At first I felt they were blaming the hemorrhage on my weight. Like it was my fault. But Chris didn't get that impression. He feels our RE doesn't want a repeat of what happened at the next cycle and losing weight can make a difficult ER easier for the RE's. I also learned from the nurse that my RE is the doctor you want if you are a known difficult ER patient. She is very experienced and I truly think if she wasn't the one who did my last ER, any other RE would not have gotten any eggs off the right ovary. I'm grateful she got what she could.

So my goal now is to be ready for the next IVF in July. I am hoping to lose at least 15lbs by June. I don't think that's an outrageous request to myself. I just hope I can do it. Chris believes I can. I have fired up the treadmill and have walked the past 2 days after dinner. I spoke with one of the dieticians at work and she gave me a few ideas. I am still a member of e-diets and I am going to follow one of the plans they offer. I want to make my RE proud. I don't know what it is about her but there is some motivation to impress her. She gave me permission to stop the Glucophage if it's bothering my stomach too much. I'm going to try and stay on it for now but I might cut down the dosage if it gets to be too much.

Wish me luck. I am going to need it!