Happy November!

Time seems to be flying by! Doesn't it always seem that the last 3 months of the year are a blur? This is the month that we will hopefully complete our first IVF cycle. I really don't want to get ahead of myself like I did last month. I am really trying to just let things happen this time. My only dilemma that I can foresee happening is needing to be off of work the first weekend of December. I only work 3-4 weekends a year and my last weekend of 2007 could fall smack dab into my ER and ET. I tried to switch weekends with some coworkers but they already had plans and appointments they couldn't change. I was lucky that I found 3 coworkers who will work for me both days if I need them off. I will owe them a favor in the future that I will be happy to return when they need me to.

I have been reading a lot about stress and infertility. It's no surprise that IF causes stress but there are IVF studies that show that woman with higher stress levels were less likely to become pg than those with less stress. God knows (and Chris) that I am a stress magnet! I found a CD advertisement in my RESOLVE magazine for a "psychological treatment plan to optimize and support your treatment cycle". I'm going to see how much it costs and if it's reasonable I think I'm going to try it. I went for my 1 1/2 hour massage today. That definitely helps. I don't want to go more than once a month because I think if I did, it wouldn't feel as great as it does if you go too often. There's a counselor available for all the IVF patients at my clinic but I'm not sure that sitting there talking to someone would actually make me feel better. I think I would benefit from more action and less talk. I really should start up on the treadmill again too but I keep coming up with excuses.

Next Friday I will start Lupron again. I'm pretty sure that the cyst I had ruptured last Sunday as the sudden pain in my right lower abdomen brought me to my knees. The next day, my complexion started to deteriorate. A hopeful sign that my estrogen level is falling. Today, my skin looked horrible as usual. I was actually glad to see it! Perhaps this pack of bcp's has finally done the trick.